HIKIKOMORI

< by ellen kennedy and tao lin >

dear tao

i felt inadequate after reading '80g of soy protein'.

i had a dream with you in it last night. i was walking home from the convenience store at around 3:30 am. you were standing on the sidewalk ahead screaming in agony and hitting your head on a mailbox. then you walked to a newspaper stand and put in a quarter and opened it and closed it on your head over and over. then you screamed 'i want to kill everyone' and started punching your head. i walked over to you and pet you and tried to hold your hands but you kept punching and saying 'i'm not going to stop until i break my fucking hand on my fucking head'.

when i woke up i smiled and then fell back asleep.

ellen

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