HIKIKOMORI

< by ellen kennedy and tao lin >

dear tao's sony robot dog,

i’m severely depressed and lonely. i miss tao. i don't want to be your friend. i don't want anymore friends. i’m depressed. my napkin is my only friend. my napkin friend. my napkin friend sits on the cardboard box that my computer is setting on and tells me what to do in my life. my napkin friend is quiet. my napkin friend says

blog
saw off foot
blog
sleep
blog
eat soybeans
sleep
blog
blog
masturbate
does ebay sell handguns?
search ebay for handgun
blog

i fold my napkin friend into a neat square and pat it lightly before going to sleep. i’m depressed. i hate myself. fuck my napkin friend. i’m alone. i’m so alone. depressed. i’m sorry. please be my friend. i’m sorry. let's be friends. my name is ellen. we are friends.

ellen

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